不开心 。

What's holding me back still .

He's good. Probably, just for now.

Thoughts of you still lingering around my mind.

Feeling like a fool everytime I thought about you, when I am long forgotten.

Been almost one year.

How long more do I need to get you completely off my mind ? I wonder.

You gave me too much, to remember.

Messed up .

"She's not just any other girl . "
Yes, he said that right to his friend in front of me.

Way back into love.

I'd to stop getting my hopes high knowing there wouldn't be an outcome .

I miss how I could complain to you when I am sick in return for words of comfort .
Your worried expressions and words you said .
Well, I think I am probably too sick to this crazy point that I am even thinking about all these .

怎么办

一直以为已被撤底伤过的心，再也不会对谁心动
但是，我好像错了
就好像游戏一样，我和他之间的友谊，谁先爱上就输了
而我，并不想输，并不想让自己陷入这单方面的感情
也许是我想太多，对于他只是一时的心动，而不是真的喜欢
怎么办，该如何是好
我的心，真的好累

“为什么我们一生追求的东西，其实在拥有的时后，就已经开始失去了呢？
如果我不曾拥有，那我也就没什么好失去的了。 不是吗？”

Forever not good enough

Hardwork did paid off , all the struggling nights up .
Maybe my expectations was way too high .
I can't say that I did well, as compared .
Disappointed .

谁又懂得，当信任和付出的真心换来的只是被叛，得到的是一句对不起，那种感觉 。
不是一次，而是两次 。
还是为了同一个她。真的觉得自己好可笑 。
想恨，却又恨不下心。知道无论你怎样的对待，我还是不会讨厌。
以后，到底还能相信什么 ？
被侧底伤过的心，怎样愈合，怎样去喜欢上另一个
是不是不要爱得那么认真，就不会那么痛？

还能相信什么

谁又懂得，当信任和付出的真心换来的只是被叛，得到的是一句对不起，那种感觉 。

不是一次，而是两次 。

真的觉得自己好可笑 。

想恨，却又恨不下心。知道无论你怎样的对待，我还是不会讨厌。

以后，到底还能相信什么 ？

被侧底伤过的心，怎样愈合，怎样去喜欢上另一个

我以为

坚强这么久，偶尔哭一下也无所谓吧。

该有多久没联络了，以为时间能淡忘这一点一滴，

也许，我还需要更多时间

Unwell

Feeling as if I can vomit anytime. Stomach feel so bloated, but I hasn't been eating much. Headache that is hurting badly. Gasping for air at times.
Seriously, feeling that unwell recently.
TGIF. Got to rest .
Exams round the corner too! That pile of stress building up inside.
Wanna get over it faster, so that I can meet my girls !

):

Failed.

Dry up tears. Get over with it . Learn from it .
I never thought I'll be so affected.
Felt as if I've let down Mr.M .
Such high hopes and expectations.

Bottling it all up deep inside

Silence doesn't means that I am okay.
They said I looked much more happier as compared to before.
I keep quiet, I didn't want any concern from anyone.
Though, I know I need it badly to feel better.
How much exactly could it lessen inside if I was to share ?
Actually, I've no idea what was it all about.
Just the feeling of empty .

Trying real hard to smile from the bottom of my heart.

Runaway train.

Can I just put down everything and run away? ):

Physically and mentally worn out. Energy drained.

24 hours a day. I only get to sleep for less than 6 hours.

Everyday. The same old routine.

It's really torturing. Not a superwoman.

Apart.

Breaking apart over and over again.

I'd enough. It's killing me.

I should stop this. Someone tell me how should I go about it.

Time don't seems to help to lessen the pain.

It's not your fault. But, it's also not my fault for choosing to be like this.

What's more important than not.

I miss you.

" It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life starts with good bye. "

Saying is always easier than doing it.
Time doesn't seems to heal everything.